Style

I am always looking for new clothes. Most of you know I love to shop. Since I had Alex the majority of the money I spend on clothes goes towards him rather than me now. I have some days where I feel like I need a new style. I am extremely stuck in a slump of I don't want to spend the time to get all dressed up but I don't want to look dumpy or lazy in how I dress. I am not posting this to get compliments on my style but more as a venting tool. Unfortunately because of my size and budget I am limited in my clothing choices. I am sure there are clothes made for little women like me but I don't have the money to buy clothes and shoes from high end stores. But on the other side I am feeling like I am getting a little older and not so juniorish. I wish I could find a happy medium. In fall/winter especially I struggle. I get in the slump of wearing a t-shirt and a zip up hoodie. I want to look nice without lots of work and little ironing. Then my next gripe is when I was in high school my skin was pretty clear. Now I am getting older and I think my skin is getting worse. I don't wear lots of make up and I normally clean my make up off when I am ready for bed. I am so frusterated with my zits and I wish I could find a solution. I don't want to take prescription medication for the problem because I would love to have another baby soon and I know you can't take acne medication while pregnant. I am pretty sure some of my acne could be from my lack of good sleep and not drinking water. But then if I drink lots of water I'm not getting enough calories. I have been to a few doctors recently and I have been told that I need to gain weight. Many of you know that gaining weight for me is probably as hard if not harder than someone trying to lose weight. Many doctors don't realize I am not a big girl, neither are my parents. Thankfully we all have the freedom to take doctors advice only as far as we want. Also I am grateful for Heavenly Father and Jesus have their own plan for our families. I strongly believe Heavenly Father only gives us what we can handle and even though everyone struggles with their own trials we are all blessed differently.
On the good note I was able to introduce Alex to my brother Christopher. Christopher has never met Alex. The last time I saw Christopher I was pregnant with Alex. Through many chain of events Christopher and I haven't seen each other. Many things having to do with my sister and my neice. Anyways..I was able to see him and talk to him a little. Most days don't go by without thinking about my brother and sister. It was nice to have some contact with him. He also reached out to me via facebook. I am not going to think that we will become close. We live very different lives but at least we have some contact. Alex can always use more family.
Well sorry for the rambling post. Next post will be more uplifting and about Alex cause he is just funny.